What Makes Me Tick (Ramblings at 4:30 am)

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For the longest time I felt as if I was a little different. Well anyone that truly knows me knows for a fact I am. I have always had a deep burning to be the best me I can be. I have made plenty of mistakes, however at this point I am becoming extremely more efficient at bettering myself. From the many walks to become more fit, to the many nights sitting with a pen and notebook to write new material for the stage I have perfected imperfection. But, the one thing I am is driven. 

Being Driven has its advantages and disadvantages. I work like a dog, but I play even harder. For example, when I was working at the Taxi Cab Co., I worked over 80 hours a week sometimes. But on those days I had off, I would spend money like it was my job. There was no middle ground. My mom always said that if I found something worth doing I would end up overdoing it. She was right (take notice I gave you credit for being right). 

My whole life has been fueled by MORE. More has been what makes me tick. More gravy on my mashed potatoes, More hours at work, More this, More that. I’m Full of More. 

Now, I look into the future and only see one thing, Less. Less time to do whats needed, Less money, Less happiness. Less this, Less that… It’s a never ending cycle. 

My point is this no matter how things are shaping up for you, always take a little MORE. Because , you never know when you are going to be left with Less.

Stay Thirsty My Friends!

Getting Over Myself

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I have had quite a lot of moments in my life where I have had adversity in my life. Starting as early as birth, these struggles have come after me one by one. My latest bugaboo has come via divorce. I put myself in a horrible position. I had to choose Money to support my family, OVER a sinking ship. So, I got involved (once again) with the wrong people. I began enabling other people to gamble on sports via the internet. I thought I was going to be on Easy Street. I found out otherwise when the Dept. of Homeland Security showed up at my house. Long story short, I don’t get in trouble just a little bit. Multiple problems where found with my living situation that put me up against a legal situation. Well as of a couple weeks ago, that has all been resolved.

That’s where tonight’s tale of struggle and woe come in. As a result of the visit by DHS, my wife informed me on April 1, 2013 that she wanted me to move out. April 1, kinda messed up that was the day she told me this. April Fools… Not!. She was for real. I ended up leaving a week or so later and moved in with a friend who at that point was no more then a business colleague His family took me in and helped me as if I was one of their own children. I have never publicly thanked them but I kind of am now. Over this course of 3-4 months I learned quite a bit  about myself. I learned that I work too hard. I play too hard also. I have lived an endless life of excess.

Now that I am on my own I have been learning how to make a life for just me. All be it, I have recently taken refuge at my parents house in Florida, I am learning. I have learned that 40 hours a week is enough to be at work. I have learned that I never want to say goodbye when I’m on the phone with my children. I have learned that some people will always do what THEY want to do and you can’t stop them for being the massive piece of crap you thought they once where but gave them a second chance. I have learned that I get hurt too easy. I love deeply, and have a severe loathing for dishonest people… Now I didn’t learn that just thought I should throw that in. I have learned what a real man does, Pays his Fucking Child Support. The final thing I learned is that I WILL be OK!

Now some of you think that this is the ramblings of a guy who is butt hurt. I say nay nay. I have started his Blog to help me on MY journey. I have the desire to be a stand up comedian. I have performed on stage for almost 3 years now. This is the beginning to the rest of my life. So if you dare , take the time to read what I have to say. Love it, Hate it, Wanna throw your computer against the wall because something I said made you angry? Then take the time to comment on my posts. I will review you comments with the proper amount of attention required. That doesn’t mean I will agree with you but I will at least read what you have to say.

Finally, I would like to remind each one of you to always be happy with the cards you have been dealt. They are your cards to play and no one else’s, so make the most out of what you get. You may have to Bluff, You may have to Fold, But always, ALWAYS play the game. Oh, and try to win too.